stupidity

Do you quite understand how stupid I feel
for not having noticed before?
How cruel I made myself without realizing
what I might be doing to you-
I'm scared to tears I may have
somehow made this hope
die before its birth,
and I'll be left out on this fragile limb
alone~
I bake potatoes by the phone,
begging your hands to call me back
so I can say I'm sorry-
-I didn't understand-

I never knew my heart would
beg for you