sea of storms

I needed you here with me
today-
I needed to bury myself
with in your shoulder,
to hide from that
distant-minded one~
here, I roll over
each hazy blue-grey wave,
tossed about by everything
that ails us:
distance, need, aching arms,
the creepy one who makes my hands
shake and my mind feeble
while I try desperately to work~
my heart sags within me,
pulled down by these
cast-iron anchors-
but I refuse to give up; give in-
I WILL NOT be flustered again
by those not worth the time-
instead, I swim on heavily,
watching for your harbour
where I'll find safety
in your arms

I know you'll save me-
I only wish it could be sooner